note to self: i miss you terribly.

oh what a night.

2006-04-21T08:12:00.000-07:00

why do people have to fight? why can't we all just be at peace with each other? why so difficult? sigh.. why does ego kick in? why does pride come in the way? why does winning always matter? why do some people feel so sensitive about things? sigh.

urgh, my days have been passing very very quickly lately. like so rush these past few days, rush to do so many things, study for tests, complete homework, go for band, sigh. and my teachers are piling work on our desks like nobody's business, stacking and stacking. and tests are so close to each other. but it's also partly my fault la.

im getting slacker and slacker, i need to MUG! my spirit is willing, but my flesh is weak! HELP ME! urgh! im partly the cause of the work pile, sigh.

oh what a night
late December back in '63
what a very special time for me
as i remember what a night.

i thought that i would have my sat afternoon and night free tomorrow. but NOOOO! whole day devoted to band, stupid speech day. i can't even study! what the hell! sad sad sad. oh well.

i need God more than ever now, i need Him always, and i know He's always there, but im just too busy to acknowledge that, or im just too lazy. i need to MUG! yes yes! okay, God bless all! take care!

i will wait for you
i promise.

i'd wonder.

2006-04-16T02:05:00.000-07:00

Holy Week didn't go as good as i had planned. Easter Vigil Mass didn't go well either. and Easter Sunday didn't go as planned either. what a way to spend Holy Week with our Lord right? His death, His resurrection, all for ME! but how did i spend my Holy Week? pretty horrible actually, and i feel like shit because i didn't spend it well and meaningfully. WHY couldn't i?! so many reasons, urgh!

i shall not talk about it.

you move me like i've got new feet.
just don't leave me like this
cause i'd wonder...

i feel like shit, and im not supposed to feel like shit, cos today is EASTER! HIS RESSURECTION! im supposed to be REJOICING! oh well, i hope this shitty feeling leaves me quickly.

i don't wanna go back to school tomorrow.

i will wait for you
i promise.

failure by designer jeans.

2006-04-10T05:45:00.000-07:00

you know, i was just about giving up on post hardcore/screamo emo when just yesterday, i listened to From First To Last for the last time before soccer. and guess what! now im addicted to them and screamo emo/post hardcore again! hahaha. its really hard to give up. but they are NICE okay! lol.

mirror mirror how amazing is my figure?
your visitors they fall apart before my pictures.
- From First To Last.

but actually, From First To Last is LITERALLY literature. their songs are really like literature itself. if you listen carefully, you will notice that they use their instruments to depict what they are singing. its like in their song "The One Armed Boxer Vs The Flying Guillotine", the drums and the guitar and the bass play in such a way that they depict the scene of a boxing ring, the entrance of the contenders, the bell ringing, the atmosphere. all just in their instruments, PURE LITERATURE.

they can actually compose that well to depict the lyrics, and produce the atmostphere of their songs. pure genius. hahahaha. they are really damn pro.

anyway, today is my brother's 12th death anniverssary. went to church with my mum, yup. i miss my brother, sigh. oh well. God has a plan for all of us, we just need to accept it with open hearts.

HOLY WEEK!! you know, its damn hard to abstain from sin for me. cause of my class. all my classmates are those childish immature people who whole day play play and cause havoc in class. DAMN IRRITATING! they never seem to grow up, but somehow, in a BAD BAD BAD way. damn hard la. whole day play and disturb people, sigh. i need God, i need Jesus. and i know that He is ALWAYS there beside me everyday, next to me always, but its very hard in school to actually be like Jesus and to forgive and to love, sigh. i need God's grace! for nothing stands against His love and His grace! YES! hahaha.

i need to go for confession soon, YES!

okay, i better go now, i want to sleep EARLY! lol. okay, everybody! TAKE CARE! God bless!

i will wait for you.
i promise.

mirror mirror how amazing is my figure.

2006-04-09T07:28:00.000-07:00

hello everybody! hope you guys are feeling good. lol.

tomorrow is my brother's death anniverssary, 12th year that he's been gone. and i was thinking about it. my brother's friend, Gang Hwa (not sure how his name is spelt but it's pronounced something like that) remembers to visit my brother's columbrum space every year, without fail, and as for myself, i DONT EVEN REMEMBER his death anniverssary. what kind of brother am i? was thinking about it, and i realise that its these little things that show Jesus in our lives, jus remembering somebody's day, and even giving that little time off from our hectic schedule or fun-filled lifestyle to jus visit him and pray for him.

my mum offered evening mass for him tomorrow, yup. i miss my brother, he always brought joy to me, no matter the season. but sadly, he HAD to go. why couldn't he just stay? but i guess God has a master plan and we are all under his demand.

okay i better get down to doing my history homework, lol. God bless all! take care!

i will wait for you
i promise.

destined for more.

2006-04-08T03:27:00.000-07:00

hello world! how is everyone? lol.

i realised that these past few days, i have been very busy, though i dont feel i am. ive got tons of work to do, and ive been rather shacked too. i wonder how you JC people do it, or USE to do it, hahahaha. teach me how to mug man. lol.

anyway, i am addicted to Daphne Loves Derby, and its all yvonne's fault, lol. bloody nice band they have. talking about bands, i want to form one, hahaha. i miss sloryae, sigh. oh well. anyway, soo and jason came over to my house today, hahaha. had fun with the guitar. and as for soo, he had lots of fun with CS and DOD, didnt you soo? hahahaha. ADDICTED already la someone! jus dont want to admit right soo? lol.

hahaha, my posts are all getting shorter and shorter, it seems like i got nothing to write about, but actually i have so many things to say and think about. hahahaha.

okay im gettin tired, goodnight all! take care! and God bless!

i will wait for you
i promise.

summer sings a song to us.

2006-04-05T07:29:00.000-07:00

i can actually sleep while using the computer, how pro is that huh? LOL.

2.4 today! i clocked 10mins and 10 secs. rather disappointing though, cause i always wanted to break the 10 min barrier. and guess what! my venture friend whom i was running with side by side, sprinted at the last lap, and he clocked 9mins 57 secs. i wanted to sprint too but i couldnt sprint as fast. oh well, at least i got an A, and which colin said "an A is enough".

and so 2.4 caused me to be real SHACKED (HAHAHA! im not using SHAGGED anymore) so i kinda fell asleep during history period. today was rather FUN!! hahaha, chem practical period was DAMN FUNNY!! HAHAHAHAHA!! "aiya mam! this glass made in England one! not made in China! so wont break one!" hahahahaha! lol, and my friend, somehow, i DONT KNOW whats wrong with him, but he doesnt know how to STIR at all, so he stirred in the wrong manner, and ended up breaking TWO boiling tubes! LOL. GENIUS!

im kinda looking forward to tomorrow too, english enrichment thing, though at first i thought it would suck, but actually, its kinda good, yup. helps me alot.

im damn slack at home, i need to GO OUT AND STUDY!! all i do at home is laze around in front of the computer, and barely do work, i need to MUG MUG MUG!! hahahaha.

getting tired now, take care everybody! night! God bless!

i will wait for you
i promise.

dream of you.

2006-04-02T07:43:00.000-07:00

Alexis - protector of mankind.

wow, i jus found out what my name actually meant, and to think that it had no meaning at all when i first picked it, lol.

anyway, i just got back from soccer, shagged. and i don't have any transport to school tomorrow, so i have to wake up extra early, sigh. why must school be so early in the morning? but at the same time, it would suck if it was in the afternoon. life is tough, but the good thing is that we ALWAYS have God there for us to cling on to, for us to find comfort in, so thank God for God! hahaha.

ive got history quiz tomorrow, on Russia. im not very confident that i will pass it, but i really hope i do, cause the punishment for not passing it is CWO. AHHH! MUST PASS! but i have to sleep early today so i can wake up early tomorrow, HOW? LOL. i miss being a child, in primary school, time flies!! hahaha.

if you will be here
here with me tonight
i'll be fine.

okay i better go now, need to bathe and revise history. lol, take care everybody! God bless!

i will wait for you
i promise.

of bodyaches and tired heads.

2006-03-30T05:09:00.000-08:00

shaggatopia - to be in a state of shagg throughout the whole day, every day.

yup, SHAGGATOPIA!! hahahaha. anyway, i got my LAPTOP! YAY! FINALLY! hahahaha.
aye, i didnt go to school today, wasnt feeling well. but i had to go for some english enrichment in school at like 3, sigh.

okay anyway, anne wants me to blog about her, and i kinda promised her i would, so here goes, LOL.

okay that's anne and i in orchard road, during the Dec hols of 2005, lol. yes, meet anne!

and now, meet her boyfriend, Jon, LOL.

okay now meet anne and her EX-BOYFRIEND, though i dont know his name, hahaha.

hahaha, yup yup. lol.

okay now that you've met anne, you can meet ME!

okay okay FINE! i bet you guys dont wanna meet me at all right? HAHAHAHAHA. LOL!

alright, got to go now! take care everybody! God bless!

i will wait for you
i promise.

i will wait.

2006-03-28T04:37:00.000-08:00

hello! im damn tired! i almost slept during mass today, SHAGGED! and im NOT goin on diets anymore! i cant take it! LOL. i NEED food! if not i will just die! hahaha, im sure most of you out there want that to happen right? lol. so maybe i just should! hahaha!

my stupid shin still hurts a little from sunday, and tomorrow is PE! AHH! HOW? i wanna RUN!! lol, hmmmm, maybe i should just sit out during PE tomorrow to let my leg rest and recover completely first, yup.

V for Vendetta is a GREAT show! LOTS of action and killing scenes, hahaha. but its very INTELLECTUAL, thanks Jason for telling me to go with an intellectual mind, haha.

okay ive got work to complete, SAD SAD SAD! i need to MUG MUG MUG for O levels, sigh. okay everybody, God bless! take care all!

i will wait for you
i promise.

GOD IS DEFINITELY HAPPENING!

2006-03-24T06:46:00.000-08:00

HELLO EVERYBODY! hahaha, i havent been updating much, but i will try to update more often, yup. so how's everybody? besides denise who likes school SO much, LOL! hahaha, hope all of you out there are fine, yup.

anyway, i've been pretty tired and shagged these past few days. PE is getting tougher and tougher and its causing my muslces to ache madly, sigh. i need a REST! sometimes i just really wanna pon school, i so totally dislike waking up so early in the morning, sigh. but anyway, im going jogging tmr with Jason, Christian and Jonathan!! YAY! i cant wait! hahaha, though im slightly tired and shagged.
NAPFA is on the 5th of April, i am aiming to break 10 mins for 2.4km, yea. i really hope i can break 10 mins, lol.

okay listen up all CORNERSTONE and LOG people! this sunday (26th march) we'll be playing soccer once again! YAY! i bet all of you cant wait to play again right? hahaha! so YES! we will be playing once again! CORNERSTONE VS LOG! hahaha, YAY! so anyway, it will be at the usual, from 7pm to 9pm, please try to make it okay? haha.

O levels are scaring me! i really cant believe that im actually gonna sit for it in November, its VERY unbelievable, like time flies SO FAST! its like in secondary 1 i was thinking to myself "LONG way more before i pass out of this school la!" but time flies SO fast, and its like suddenly at the blink of an eye, im already in secondary 4! WOW!

so TREASURE EVERY moment spent in our lives, and thank GOD for giving us all we have, all the countless blessings He has graciously showered upon us. just look around you and you will see the many blessings He has showered upon you, so THANK GOD for them! TREASURE EVERY single one of them! lol.

haha, okay i have nothing more to write, so i shall end here. Take care everybody! God bless! dont forget He loves you! and He ALWAYS WILL! (:

i will wait for you
i promise.

boredom killed dan.

2006-03-18T00:24:00.000-08:00

HELLO! how's everyone? hahaha.

im damn bored! like i wasted my WHOLE saturday away! like i woke up at 10.20, had breakfast, went back to bed and woke up again at 2.50 and slack all the way to now, 4.30. AWESOME day isnt it? sigh. im bloody bored! nobody to talk to me on msn, like everyone's out or away, sigh.

today is total shit. im looking forward to tomorrow, SOCCER SOCCER SOCCER! WOOOHOOO! i cant wait to play soccer tomorrow. attention all churchies!! soccer on sunday night from 7-9 at the usual. please try to come, its like the LAST day before school starts, which everybody DREADS. hmmm, but maybe not denise, LOL.

where's EVERYONE?! like nobody is online!! and nobody is free to go out and have fun! SIGH! damn boring!!

okay im goin for novena now, i need God with me, i seem to be declining in my faith. i hope i will be able to get up on the right track soon. bye guys! take care! God bless!

i will wait for you
i promise.

GOD IS AWESOME!

2006-03-12T07:42:00.000-08:00

RALLY ROCKED! was awesome! ok, on behalf of Jason, Kristin and myself, i'd like to thank EVERYBODY who helped hospitality one way or another, for coming down on friday to help pack, for making it possible in such a short period of time when we only notified you the day before. for having the innitiative for helping with the ushering or registration without any of us to push you guys, and also for having the innitiative for helping to pack up the stuff and cleaning up the place. thank you everybody out there for taking our nonsense and our shit if we did give any. for being able to tahan us talking and telling you what to do. THANK YOU ALL!! thanks from the bottom of our hearts!

God has been very kind to us and has blessed us with countless blessings. look at the rally and you can see for yourself. im sure many of us were really touched even though we might have already seen the play twice, thrice or even ten times! so many people broke down in tears, well, i did a little. and we didnt expect such a huge turn out, especially so many non-Catholics. so PRAISE GOD! let us not forget that all this was possible only because of Him! and He deserves all glory and honour and praise! so praise Him and our dearest Mother Mary for Her kind intersessions. let us not forget all that He has done for us. THANK YOU LORD!

ok i need a break! sigh, really need one, im soooo tired and shagged and drained. God please grant me rest for my wearied body.

ok, its damn late and i better go, take care everybody! keep praising God's great name! praise Him with all your heart and let it never end! God bless!

i will wait for you
i promise.

story of a violin

2006-03-08T07:18:00.000-08:00

hello everybody! i hope everyone's fine and dandy!

God has not promised skies always blue,
flower-strewn pathways, all our lives through.
God has not promised sun without rain,
joy without sorrow, peace without pain.
But God has promised the gift of serenity
& strength for the day,
rest for the wearied, light for the way,
grace & courage for the trials, help from above,
unfailing sympathy, undying love.

yes, our God is awesome and sometimes he just wants to test us by putting us through alot of difficulty, but no matter what, trusting in Him is the best, though it might seem hard, for he will pull us through always. just trust in Him and let go of all your pains.

i am goin to learn how to play the violin! cool eh? i love music, classical music. so im dying to learn actually, hahaha. then that would add to my "instruments i can play" list. lol.

A and E maths test tmr and i barely went through my book at its 11.30pm already. sigh. guess have to burn midnight oil tonight, hahaha. actually i wasnt worried for the test at all this whole afternoon, but it was only when i was at church that i became rather worried about it. my long list of worries.

ok i better go now, gotta study, hahaha. take care all! God bless! dont forget, he LOVES you!

i will wait for you
i promise.

Canon in D

2006-03-06T22:58:00.000-08:00

hello! how is everyone? good i hope.

you know, right now i really REALLY feel like pursuing music. i just really love music, and i just really wanna like play like the SSO, all the symphonic pieces, 250 years of great music. its like very emotional too, all the energy and emotions. sadly, SSO barely takes in any Singaporeans, mostly foreign talent. sigh.

hahaha, ive got like so many things that i wanna pursue, like my mind is full of things that i wanna do. i wanna have a band, i wanna be a marine biologist, a doctor, an adventurer/athlete, i used to want to become a pilot, and now, a musicians. well i guess i have to stick to one, and do the others as part time. yup.

i think i hold the record for most number of guitar strings broken in a month, like i break at least 2 a month. which sucks, gotta stock up on strings alot. and that is troublesome, like all the guitar shops are not near my house, sigh.

if music be the food of love, play on. -william shakesphere. so i shall play on then, hahaha.

A and E maths test on Thursday and biology test on Friday. i hope i do well, lol. ok i shall not go on further, gotta study. and im gonna cut my hair! trim the sides. yup. ok you guys take care! God bless!

i will wait for you
i promise.

Paris in summer.

2006-03-02T00:00:00.002-08:00

hello! how's everyone? sigh, im DAMN TIRED!!

i can't take it anymore, like these past 2 days have been damn tiring for me. i went to school on wednesday, only to sleep during project read-it and after tt sleep during chem class, for about 45 mins. i didnt get caught at all, which thinking about it, is the bad part, cos mrs Koh was teaching a new topic, and i kinda totally missed all of it except for the graph part. sigh. so i have to revise that on my own.

i hear the music when i look at you.

and after that, PE was SHIT TIRING! i swear, it was by far the worst PE ever, this time mr Foo really pushed us to our MAX! we ran all the way from school to MI (bartley) and then to cherry grove. from cherry grove, we sprint all they way up cherry hill to the top. damn tiring. and after that was the usual, MOUNT EVEREST! sigh. so yup, after that i was too shagged and i HAD TO EAT! if not i would have died la, so i jus abstained from meat, didnt exactly fast. sigh.

you say hello,
inside im screaming i love you.

and today was damn tiring too, slept in class as well. and this time it was worst. like my bio teacher was showing the class a video on reproduction in human beings, so there was some sexual content in it, and it contained like un-sensored images of *wooohoooo* of both genders. and my classmates were all like laughing damn loudly, all of them got like so EXCITED la. but guess wat! i was sleeping away. even through the noise, i jus slept, whole 2 periods. damn tired la! i jus slept while they made hell of a noise laughing and all. thats how tired i was. but im still tired now.

well, im so in love with you.

AND IM SICK!! URGH! caught a cold last night, sigh.

so that was my past 2 days for you, and im sick now, what more can i ask for? hahaha. sigh.

ok i need REST! you guys out there take care too! God bless!

if you'd be here, 
here with me tonight, 
I’ll be fine.

you can stay tonight and make everything alright.

2006-02-27T07:23:00.000-08:00

wow! it's been 5 days since i last blogged. alright, i shall blog before heading to bed. lol. so how's everyone? alright? soo still trying to guess who? HAHAHA.

anyway, ive been alright, yea. only on Sunday i felt rather down and sad. MEMORIES. memories of the friends i once had, and the story of our bands. sameolddifference + sloryae = ROCKING GIG! sigh. now i guess sloryae is gone and replaced by SLOF. and it happened SO FAST!! ok, enough of that before i go SAD AGAIN! hahaha.

oh!! Anne and i won the pink panther contest!! FIRST PRIZE!! she got her pink panther bag while i got my pink panther boxes, and we also received 2 complimentary passes to the movie. but being VERY NICE, Anne gave the tickets to me. THANKS A BUNCH ANNE! YAY! THANKS! hahaha.

cant you see that i wanna be
there with open arms.

im dancing for SYDR. and im very scared, its like in front of what, close to 1000 people!! i mean, i know im doing it for God, for His glory, but i guess, stage fright always kicks in on me. sigh. but i remember pageant! actually, i didnt wanna dance on the altar for pageant, but in the end i did so because i remembered i am doing it for God so i gave it my all, though it was rather embrassing. so many people were like giggling away. yea. but who cares? doing it for God! YES! hahaha.

you can stay tonight
and make everything alright.

and i still remember my LONG LONG LONG hair, and i MISS IT DEARLY!

Joan (angel Gabriel), Justin (innkeeper) and MYSELF! (THE SHEPHARD BOY!) hahaha, look at the long long hair la! i really miss it! AHHH! but oh well, my hair will grow back soon, yup. oh and i had to dance in that overcoat. and its pretty HEAVY! its like damn thick so its like heavy and drags on my shoulders, so it was pretty hard to dance in it. yup.

hold me tight and dont ever let me go.

ok i shall end here. soo, if u havent guessed who yet, continue trying, hahaha!! ok take care and God bless!

note to self: i miss you terribly.

2006-02-22T06:55:00.000-08:00

hello! how's everbody doing? fine i hope.

PE today was SHIT!! like 5 km run? no break, run whole way. felt damn tired after that. its like worse than fuchlark and mount everest put together multiplied by 2. sigh. so im feeling pretty tired now though its only like 11pm. yup

i love the feeling when u complete all your homework, especially when your given quite a lot. its like the weight on your shoulders are finally being removed and you feel free. yup. ive done all my homework, feel so GOOD! YES!! hahaha but im feeling damn sleepy and damn tired, so im going off early today, yup.

my heart, your hands.

i have band tomorrow, sigh. i wanna skip and go tuition instead. after the implementation of the 5 days a week band, it makes me feel like shit, i jus feel like quitting now. it really makes me feel that band is ridiculous, and it jus had to be implemented at the point where i was actually starting to enjoy band. and our concert is in June and we are already having 5 days a week practices? are u MAD? its chasing off all the seniors, including myself. like today almost all the seniors ponned band, plus me of course, lol.

her sparkling eyes make me weak at my words.

and on friday i have some dance practice for SYDR, cant wait. lol. but im afraid after friday's band i will feel damn tired and won't have the energy to dance. hahaha, but im still really looking forward to it, lol.

ok im getting very very sleepy, so good night! take care! God bless!

smiles and her laughter
its the only thing that i've been waiting for all time.

Act one, scene one.

2006-02-21T05:43:00.000-08:00

ok i shall not start with "hello everybody!" anymore since denise might think that it is the same post since every post starts with "hello everybody!" hahaha. see i already didnt start with "hello everybody!"

ok anyway, how's everyone doing? i hope yall are good, hahaha.

today had band, tiring as usual, yup. i just wish it would like stop and not be so harsh, 5 times a week is MADNESS! very soon the band will die, nobody really wants to go anyway. oh and today i had a good time wedgie-ing my junior. haha GREEN UNDERWEAR! and i think it almost tore, lol.

anyway, nothing much really happened today. im jus too lazy to write about anything anyway, so yup. good night all! take care! God bless!

should i ask her?

i've been dying to reach you
but your extension cord wouldnt reach that far
i've been desperately waiting
the indicator light is flashing on.

laughter, the best medicene.

2006-02-20T00:04:00.000-08:00

hello everybody out there! how's stuff with you guys? hope yall are doing fine.

every second im without you
im a mess.

anyway, i just got back from school, went to makan with aloysious first, hahaha. anyway, Praise God! last time i wasn't able to mix around with my classmates well, and we always fought, i was like the loner of the class. but now i kinda love my class, i have like really GREAT friends in there, who joke around with me whole day, lol. keeps me AWAKE! really great friends! joke everyday, laughing out loudly while the teacher is teaching, HAHAHA! and they are those that would definately try to help you with whatever you need help with, though they might be very busy, and though they are uncertain of the problem themselves.

Me: "look at that insect! damn cool!"
-Sharad blows-
Me: "OH! its not an insect! HAHAHAHAHAHA!"

LOL!!! HAHAHAHAHA! was really damn funny! LOL! so YES! Praise God cause he helped me find PEACE in school, which was what i was praying hard and hoping hard for since the start of the year. God is awesome! really helped me find peace, yea.

just stay with me lay with me now.

Joel: "i have an imaginary girlfriend"
Me: "so i suppose you sit next to her during the movie eh?"
Joel: "ya la then! but she never seems to help me finish the popcorn, i always seem to eat it all up myself."

LOL.

anyway, spiritual prep on Saturday was damn good! refreshed me, especially Justin's talk on the Holy Spirit and Empowerment. Praise God! and thanks Justin for the talk, really helped me think about things alot. yea. sad part is that, that is the last spiritual prep before the rally itself, so if any of us encounter any emotional or spiritual difficulty before the rally, which i think most or at least some of us will, it would be pretty hard to overcome, and might affect us. yea. but FRET NOT! God is ALWAYS there for us, we just don't want to or are lazy to turn to him. TURN TO HIM ALWAYS! YES!

ok, thats all for today, take care everybody! God bless!!

i need you here tonight
just like the ocean needs the waves.

your already a voice inside my head.

2006-02-16T05:54:00.000-08:00

hello everybody!! how is everyone? i hope everyone is okay. hahaha.

anyway, ive been up to stuff so i like totally forgot about updating, opps, lol. anyway, i've been very very good, happy, joyful these past few days. yea. though i have alot of problems arising. i felt really depressed yesterday cause of some problem, and today as well. but i guess God is always there for me, pulling me up so im alright, yup. hahaha.

how was valentine's day for you guys? hope it went well. valentine's day for me was GREAT! yea. hahaha.

it really was great! thanks to you! (:

ok anyway, today i had some depressing stuff goin on in me, some problems that happened. but anyway, i had this talk with Justin Sim and he helped me realised something, so i am happy already, not depressed anymore, yup. Praise God!! it seems like i always forget about God when i go through trials and problems, it seems as if i forget that i can and should fall on Him and pray to Him for help, instead of taking it into my own hands. yup. i really must learn not to be too self-concious and insecure, i forgot that they are my friends and they know me best.

ok i am getting pretty tired now, take care everybody! God bless!

will you come home and stop this pain tonight?
i miss you.

BETRAY!

2006-02-09T07:52:00.001-08:00

hello everyone! how's everyone and everything? i hope everything's fine with everybody, hahaha.

anyway, tomorrow is 'O' level result collection day. not that im taking back the results but SO many people are talking about it that it doesnt seem foreign to me, lol. so i almost forgot that tomorrow is a regular school day for me and that i have band. hahaha. i wish i could forget about my regular school day though, really is VERY tiring for me to wake up so early!! goodness, i wonder how the teachers do it!! MAYBE, they all are actually robots, HMMM, u never know...

i miss BEN AND JERRY'S!! i wonder WHO got me ADDICTED to it, HMMMM...hahahaha. ms ng herself. AHH! now i am so addicted to it! lol. and somehow i don't grow fat no matter how much ice cream i eat. which is GOOD! hahaha. and i hurt my right leg today. isn't that bad but it does hurt, though i can still work, its jus very uncomfortable and painful. yup.

her sparkling eyes make me weak at my words.

ok, got nothing else to write. take care everybody, God bless!

note to self: i miss you terribly.

smiles are her laughter.

2006-02-08T05:11:00.000-08:00

hello everybody! hope everyone is alright and well. today i fell sick!! sigh. i had like stomach pain before recess and that was like 10.50 and it lasted till 3 plus. it hurt alot, and i still don't know what the cause was, but whatever it is, it totally sucked, hurt like CRAP! so i left school early and went to the doctors and went home to rest. i couldnt even eat at recess in PEACE!! crap.

e maths test today was easy, hahaha. and i got back my bio class test result. PE today was good. it wasnt as tiring as last weeks, thats cause we started off with anaerobic exercises first, and ended with aerobic exercises. don't know the theory behind it but my teacher said that starting off with anaerobic first helps us not get as tired as that when we start off with aerobic. yup. the same drill, just backwards, non-stop.

im goin to sleep early tonight, got to wake up earlier tomorrow. sigh. i HATE waking up so early in the morning!! unless its for soccer!! or jogging or swimming or gymming. other than that, i despise waking up so early! hahaha. and i've been sleeping pretty late as well, NOT good! i NEED to GROW!!

hmmm, so many thoughts on my mind now, but i still don't know what to write. haha. OH AND MY CLASSMATE ROCKS!! he can wear his pants so high that only 3 buttons on his shirt are exposed, which is DAMN HIGH!! i thought only SJI guys are capable of that, opps, LOL! hahaha.

ok everybody, take care and God bless!!

smiles and her laughter
its the only thing that I've been waiting for all time
regardless of our distance and our hope grows greater
trapped by pretty eyes and letters for all time
the only thing that I've been waiting for.

valentine's day.

2006-02-07T06:57:00.000-08:00

HELLO! ok, first thing, mission ROCKED!! was really very nice, it really helped me search my soul and my inner self more, yup. it was damn fun too! the dancing and the singing and lots more, haha, all the LAUGHTER it brought, really cheered all of us up, really damn fun. unexplainable joy and laughter it brought, lol. just wished it didnt end so quickly as it started.

anyway, my weekend was ok, though i had this BIG BIG BIG fight with my mum. i couldnt sleep that night, was very troubled. but fortunately for mission, it helped me reconcile with my mum. yea. Praise God!! and im begining to like my school and my class much more, so Praise God! peace in school and peace in the family. wonderful how God works in his many tiny ways :)

anyway, i went to watch memoirs of a geisha on saturday. damn SAD show la! its damn EMO!! its like the children get sold to another family! wah lao, tts damn poor thing, sigh. and then tt girl like only after decades then get to be with the one she loves. sigh, damn sad. so emotional. lol. oh and i went for novena that day. it was great to go. i felt that inner peace in me after goin for it, yup.

ok, take care everybody.

i really can't wait for valentine's day.
unexplainable happiness. :)

fuchlark!

2006-02-01T05:32:00.000-08:00

ok, i changed the video. its been long since ive last listened to silverstein so decided to put one of my favourite songs from them. yea.

today i had PE, but this time, SPECIAL training only for the 15 of us who passed all the NAPFA stations. its gonna carry on for 2 months. the rest who failed any of the stations have to stick with their weakest stations for the nxt 2 mths. i love training, but this one is really HARDCORE!! its like intensive fitness training, haha. we started off with pull-ups. then we had some German fitness training thing called fuchlark or something like tt. (btw is pronounced F**k-lag) damn funny, lol. its really really hardcore, its running. so we had 2 rounds of that fuchlark. following that, we had another round of pull-ups. and then MOUNT EVEREST!

run up the HDB block till the 12th floor, run across to the next flight of stairs and run down. made me giddy cause your like running round and round, like a dog trying to chase it's tail, yea. LOL. then after that was another round of pull-ups. and then finished off with 40 sit-ups under 1 minute. and we didn't get any breaks inbetween the different exercises, haha. so i was very tired after that, but the next period was recess, so i felt ENERGETIC! LOL! =)

i think it was worst than 3.2km ok! HAHA! =)
i think the German dude who created fuchlark must really be MAD!
oh and i slept today in class, during English and History, AH!! the sleepiness in me is coming back! NOO!! It felt good to say Divine Office today after such a long time of not saying it, i hope i really can get to say it everyday, im trying to wake up earlier to say the Divine Office in the morning. SACRIFICES!

anyway, valentine's day is coming soon. hmmm...

My long list of worries.

2006-01-29T05:28:00.000-08:00

ok first, happy chinese new year to all!

i slept at like 2.45am today, and woke up at like 6 to serve morning mass, but GUESS WHAT?! i didnt sleep at mass at all, haha! certainly an acomplishment, lol.

anyway, today passed FAST!! i don't know why it passed so fast, but somehow it did. its unlike my usual days when it didn't pass as fast, sigh, how come? i hope tomorrow doesnt pass that fast. lol. today i went visiting, it was good, yea. i realised that i don't really see my relatives that often so its like this is my only chance, so it felt good, yea. oh and my relatives love my new hair style, they say now they FINALLY can see my forehead, LOL.

anyway, i feel VERY LOVED! really i do feel it. its like all my relatives care for me so much, and MANY people around the WORLD dont get to experience THIS kind of LOVE that has been bestowed upon me! look at the orphans, or those living on the streets who are starving, just waiting for a nice HUG, or even a nice "hello!". those that are abandoned and despised. i really feel very sad whenever i think about them, sigh. i wished they could experience the love im given. and even sometimes im not appreciative of this love im shown, i really need to be more appreciative of it, another new year's resolution.

right now, i really want to go on a missionary, i really want to reach out to those orphans everywhere in the world, those outcasts and despised people that the rich look down upon and do not help them. i stumbled upon this passage and was thinking about how it reflects on my entry.
Mark 2:17 "jesus heard them and answered, "People who are well do not need a doctor, but only those who are sick. I have not come to call respectable people, but OUTCASTS."

this passage really stuck me as we always talk of being like Jesus, to follow in His ways and His teachings, to try to forgive and to love one another. but we always tend to forget that we should not be the "sunday" catholics and go to church without fail every sunday, try not to sin, obey his commandments and follow Him jus for that ONE HOUR, but INSTEAD, follow Him through spreading His word, His teaching and MOST IMPORTANTLY, His LOVE, everyday and every single second of our lives, though how ever hard it may seem. a missionary is also another way of showing His love, by reaching out to the OUTCASTS that Jesus mentioned in the passage. to go out and proclaim the word to ALL, no matter what trials that may come your way, for Jesus did EVERYTHING in His power just to save us, He went through the humiliation, the scourging and the PAIN just to save our sinful souls.

For if you really do love God, you will definately want to spread His love. "It only takes a spark to get a fire going, and those all around can warm up in its glowing. thats how it is with God's love, once you've experienced it...you want to pass it on."

finally, a template.

2006-01-27T23:14:00.000-08:00

ok like finally i got a proper template, lol.

ok today i woke up at like 7.35. had breakfast and ran to Jason's house and played soccer. haha. today's game was kind of tiring, everyone dead beat by the third match. and today's match was kinda rough for me, i kinda pushed my way through people and accidently kicked them. sorry guys if i hurt you! haha. then after that, went to cardon for lunch, had LAKSA! like finally had it in such a long time.

the PLAY was so good! wow, the guys and girls really acted REALY REALLY well! especially, the *cough cough* parts, lol. by the way, i found out that they really KISSED that night, Safith and that girl. and the play was really very funny too. lol.
actress 1: "didnt u hear singapore and malaysia separated?"
actress 2: "what?! was there an earthquake?"
lol..
"please don't shout. it makes me nervous."
LOL! thats just some of the funny parts, though there are more. but i guess being there to see it makes it much more funny than relating it now.

that night was really very nice, thank you.
"know love, you are looking good tonight"
- Mae

i can feel something different for the first time
having made sense when all the words rhyme
no chance of stopping now i'm taking it all
and now im caught in the air it's a good life
pass it up, i wouldnt dare or wonder why
i remeber being ready and waiting to fall
just like I did tonight

The very first.

2006-01-10T06:13:00.000-08:00

ok hello world. Daniel here.

First blog. will be changing template soon, pls link. haha

take care and God bless.