Friday, April 21, 2006

oh what a night.

why do people have to fight? why can't we all just be at peace with each other? why so difficult? sigh.. why does ego kick in? why does pride come in the way? why does winning always matter? why do some people feel so sensitive about things? sigh.

urgh, my days have been passing very very quickly lately. like so rush these past few days, rush to do so many things, study for tests, complete homework, go for band, sigh. and my teachers are piling work on our desks like nobody's business, stacking and stacking. and tests are so close to each other. but it's also partly my fault la.

im getting slacker and slacker, i need to MUG! my spirit is willing, but my flesh is weak! HELP ME! urgh! im partly the cause of the work pile, sigh.

oh what a night
late December back in '63
what a very special time for me
as i remember what a night.

i thought that i would have my sat afternoon and night free tomorrow. but NOOOO! whole day devoted to band, stupid speech day. i can't even study! what the hell! sad sad sad. oh well.

i need God more than ever now, i need Him always, and i know He's always there, but im just too busy to acknowledge that, or im just too lazy. i need to MUG! yes yes! okay, God bless all! take care!

i will wait for you
i promise.

Posted by Feel. at 8:12 AM

Sunday, April 16, 2006

i'd wonder.

Holy Week didn't go as good as i had planned. Easter Vigil Mass didn't go well either. and Easter Sunday didn't go as planned either. what a way to spend Holy Week with our Lord right? His death, His resurrection, all for ME! but how did i spend my Holy Week? pretty horrible actually, and i feel like shit because i didn't spend it well and meaningfully. WHY couldn't i?! so many reasons, urgh!

i shall not talk about it.

you move me like i've got new feet.
just don't leave me like this
cause i'd wonder...

i feel like shit, and im not supposed to feel like shit, cos today is EASTER! HIS RESSURECTION! im supposed to be REJOICING! oh well, i hope this shitty feeling leaves me quickly.

i don't wanna go back to school tomorrow.

i will wait for you
i promise.

Posted by Feel. at 2:05 AM

Monday, April 10, 2006

failure by designer jeans.

you know, i was just about giving up on post hardcore/screamo emo when just yesterday, i listened to From First To Last for the last time before soccer. and guess what! now im addicted to them and screamo emo/post hardcore again! hahaha. its really hard to give up. but they are NICE okay! lol.

mirror mirror how amazing is my figure?
your visitors they fall apart before my pictures.
- From First To Last.

but actually, From First To Last is LITERALLY literature. their songs are really like literature itself. if you listen carefully, you will notice that they use their instruments to depict what they are singing. its like in their song "The One Armed Boxer Vs The Flying Guillotine", the drums and the guitar and the bass play in such a way that they depict the scene of a boxing ring, the entrance of the contenders, the bell ringing, the atmosphere. all just in their instruments, PURE LITERATURE.

they can actually compose that well to depict the lyrics, and produce the atmostphere of their songs. pure genius. hahahaha. they are really damn pro.

anyway, today is my brother's 12th death anniverssary. went to church with my mum, yup. i miss my brother, sigh. oh well. God has a plan for all of us, we just need to accept it with open hearts.

HOLY WEEK!! you know, its damn hard to abstain from sin for me. cause of my class. all my classmates are those childish immature people who whole day play play and cause havoc in class. DAMN IRRITATING! they never seem to grow up, but somehow, in a BAD BAD BAD way. damn hard la. whole day play and disturb people, sigh. i need God, i need Jesus. and i know that He is ALWAYS there beside me everyday, next to me always, but its very hard in school to actually be like Jesus and to forgive and to love, sigh. i need God's grace! for nothing stands against His love and His grace! YES! hahaha.

i need to go for confession soon, YES!

okay, i better go now, i want to sleep EARLY! lol. okay, everybody! TAKE CARE! God bless!

i will wait for you.
i promise.

Posted by Feel. at 5:45 AM

Sunday, April 09, 2006

mirror mirror how amazing is my figure.

hello everybody! hope you guys are feeling good. lol.

tomorrow is my brother's death anniverssary, 12th year that he's been gone. and i was thinking about it. my brother's friend, Gang Hwa (not sure how his name is spelt but it's pronounced something like that) remembers to visit my brother's columbrum space every year, without fail, and as for myself, i DONT EVEN REMEMBER his death anniverssary. what kind of brother am i? was thinking about it, and i realise that its these little things that show Jesus in our lives, jus remembering somebody's day, and even giving that little time off from our hectic schedule or fun-filled lifestyle to jus visit him and pray for him.

my mum offered evening mass for him tomorrow, yup. i miss my brother, he always brought joy to me, no matter the season. but sadly, he HAD to go. why couldn't he just stay? but i guess God has a master plan and we are all under his demand.

okay i better get down to doing my history homework, lol. God bless all! take care!

i will wait for you
i promise.

Posted by Feel. at 7:28 AM

Saturday, April 08, 2006

destined for more.

hello world! how is everyone? lol.

i realised that these past few days, i have been very busy, though i dont feel i am. ive got tons of work to do, and ive been rather shacked too. i wonder how you JC people do it, or USE to do it, hahahaha. teach me how to mug man. lol.

anyway, i am addicted to Daphne Loves Derby, and its all yvonne's fault, lol. bloody nice band they have. talking about bands, i want to form one, hahaha. i miss sloryae, sigh. oh well. anyway, soo and jason came over to my house today, hahaha. had fun with the guitar. and as for soo, he had lots of fun with CS and DOD, didnt you soo? hahahaha. ADDICTED already la someone! jus dont want to admit right soo? lol.

hahaha, my posts are all getting shorter and shorter, it seems like i got nothing to write about, but actually i have so many things to say and think about. hahahaha.

okay im gettin tired, goodnight all! take care! and God bless!

i will wait for you
i promise.

Posted by Feel. at 3:27 AM

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

summer sings a song to us.

i can actually sleep while using the computer, how pro is that huh? LOL.

2.4 today! i clocked 10mins and 10 secs. rather disappointing though, cause i always wanted to break the 10 min barrier. and guess what! my venture friend whom i was running with side by side, sprinted at the last lap, and he clocked 9mins 57 secs. i wanted to sprint too but i couldnt sprint as fast. oh well, at least i got an A, and which colin said "an A is enough".

and so 2.4 caused me to be real SHACKED (HAHAHA! im not using SHAGGED anymore) so i kinda fell asleep during history period. today was rather FUN!! hahaha, chem practical period was DAMN FUNNY!! HAHAHAHAHA!! "aiya mam! this glass made in England one! not made in China! so wont break one!" hahahahaha! lol, and my friend, somehow, i DONT KNOW whats wrong with him, but he doesnt know how to STIR at all, so he stirred in the wrong manner, and ended up breaking TWO boiling tubes! LOL. GENIUS!

im kinda looking forward to tomorrow too, english enrichment thing, though at first i thought it would suck, but actually, its kinda good, yup. helps me alot.

im damn slack at home, i need to GO OUT AND STUDY!! all i do at home is laze around in front of the computer, and barely do work, i need to MUG MUG MUG!! hahahaha.

getting tired now, take care everybody! night! God bless!

i will wait for you
i promise.

Posted by Feel. at 7:29 AM

Sunday, April 02, 2006

dream of you.

Alexis - protector of mankind.

wow, i jus found out what my name actually meant, and to think that it had no meaning at all when i first picked it, lol.

anyway, i just got back from soccer, shagged. and i don't have any transport to school tomorrow, so i have to wake up extra early, sigh. why must school be so early in the morning? but at the same time, it would suck if it was in the afternoon. life is tough, but the good thing is that we ALWAYS have God there for us to cling on to, for us to find comfort in, so thank God for God! hahaha.

ive got history quiz tomorrow, on Russia. im not very confident that i will pass it, but i really hope i do, cause the punishment for not passing it is CWO. AHHH! MUST PASS! but i have to sleep early today so i can wake up early tomorrow, HOW? LOL. i miss being a child, in primary school, time flies!! hahaha.

if you will be here
here with me tonight
i'll be fine.

okay i better go now, need to bathe and revise history. lol, take care everybody! God bless!

i will wait for you
i promise.